"The point is, I JUMPED."

 "You can't leave everything to fate, boy!  She's got a lot to do.  Sometimes you've got to give her a hand."
-Leonardo Da Vinci, "Ever After"

No, no, that's not me jumping off the cliff.  But I DID jump off that cliff some nine years ago when my orgmates and I went to Puerto Galera.  Of course being the ever-clumsy me, the jump came out less graceful than I intended (Read: DISASTER).  I planned to do a cannon ball jump but I reached for my knees a little too late and halfway down, gravity took control of my body and I landed on the water on my side with a whopping splash. (I think everybody felt how much it hurt judging from their reactions when I surfaced!)  Hours later, the whole of my left leg was covered with an ugly bruise like I was paddled.

With an attempt to pass off the disastrous jump as a humorous learning experience, my friends and I coined up phrase, "The point is, I JUMPED" making an allusion of the life lesson--"You will never know unless you try."  (Well, I tried, and I now know what free-falling feels like...As well as the pain that comes after haha.)

Later on, I would forget about the jump, the bruise, and the lesson it supposedly entailed.

But years later, I find myself thinking about that jump, and again, about the life lesson we forcibly connected it to.  As much as I hate to admit it, I'm not as aggressive as my other friends when it comes to getting the things that I want.  I'm lucky. Some things that I wanted in the past, they just happened without me exerting too much effort.

But I'm about to turn 29.  And while I'm not the type to worry about age, I've come to realize lately that if I want to accomplish more in this lifetime, it's high time I become more assertive in pursuing the things that I want whether it be about career, travel, love life, or life in general.   I think now I'd rather fail because it was not meant to be rather than fail because I didn't do anything at all.

So while I'm still not immune to fear of failure and humiliation, starting today, I am reviving that phrase we coined from that catastrophic attempt at adventure in Puerto Galera years ago.  In the process, my pride might get bruised and the outcome might disappoint me but, at the end of the day, the point is, I JUMPED.  And who knows, I might get something better in the end :)

11 comments:

  1. I so agree...and besides, when we're older, we'll probably regret the things that we DIDN't do, than those that we did. Bravo, koryn!

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  2. yung great grand daughter ni CinderElla sa Ever After na nag kwento sa brothers Grimm, ang line nya in the end is something like "the point is, gentlemen,that she LIVED."

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  3. SONIA: True. I don't want to be in my 80's, sitting on a rocking chair, watching with envy while other people go on adventures because I didn't have my own :) Thanks, girl! I just have to keep reminding myself that fear is just as big as we make it to be in our minds.

    TK: Oh yes! I remember that. I love love that film. Cheesy as it is, it's lessons are very true and applicable to our lives:)

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  4. Love this post Mother! Really!! :) And the phrase. So meaningful.

    But on a lighter note, I jumped off a cliff also. And like you it was a disaster. Last minute thinking and SPLAT! Plus, goodbye bikini top! Haha!

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  5. Ooh...at least that didn't happen to me! What were we thinking?! Hahaha!

    Thanks, mother. I wasn't really even thinking that much when I wrote this. I guess I'm really feeling the urge to be more assertive that's why the words flowed freely.

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  6. Wow, Koryn, I like this post so much!!! Very inspiring, so very true and such a great lesson! It's really well written too and I just love the connection of this jump experience with being more "agressive" at life in general. Here's to jumping and winning!!! :)

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  7. JULIA: Thanks! I love it too because I really meant every word I said. It's like a breakthrough moment for me. And yes, here's to jumping and winning! :)

    KAI: Hi Kai! Thank you! And thanks for dropping by! :)

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  8. I'm the same way.. I'm such a scaredy cat, I hardly ever take risks. Right now I don't feel the need to get out of my comfort zone yet so I'm still enjoying it. But I know eventually I have to learn to cope with change!

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  9. I guess there's a reason why they call it comfort zone! Don't worry, I'm not even sure yet if I'm really ready to get out of that zone soon, but I just feel restless so I guess there's no other way to go right?

    And I'm sure when you feel you need to get out of yours, you're compulsion will overcome your fear ;)

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